It's Ramadan. If the world really ends this year, this is my last Ramadan. scoff. That would truly be a shame because I regretfully really let it slip by. I didn't pray proper Tarawi or do anything extra really. I may not have felt as guilty if I had instead atleast studied. sigh. Honestly, being in this position - this limbo - sucks. Done with basic sciences, but not yet able to do anything different. To be 27 ...wow I'm not even 27, I'm 28. WOW. to be 28, and still living the same student life I was at 25? hell, at 19 even. Whats different from highschool. Still waiting for life to start. But alhumdulilla, as i try to remind myself, I have so much to be thankful for. Even if i start with being thankful for one grace, my parents, it makes up for a million complaints. and then you mix in all the other mercies and then how dare I feel unhappy, unsettled, restless. 28, 28, 28. only scary because its close to 30. why that matters, God knows. its 3:32 am, and i'm supposed to be studying. when that will end, God knows.